I get knocked down.

I get knocked down, but I get up again... dun dun dun dun dun dun.

Last week I decided to talk a jog around town. You know, get back into the habit. Crossing fingers. Anyway, part way in to my run I was feeling great, until I felt not so great. I looked down to change a song on my phone and before I knew it, I was laying on the concrete.

It was one of those uneven sidewalks and I knew I had no chance of saving myself before I went splat. I had a temporary spat with gravity, and gravity won. I knew it was bad when I didn't even care about my phone falling onto the ground. I did the whole, jump up, look around to make sure no one saw me and start running again. Only, I took one step and was like, nope, not happening.

A week later, I am proud to say it hasn't hindered my running schedule. I have a nasty bruise and some scratches and scabs on my left knee, but for the most part I am good. What got me really thinking about this, is the fact that I have a huge scab. I feel like I haven't had one for years. Which can mean a couple of things, mainly I am either not active enough, or I am extremely graceful and not clumsy.

Haha I am going to go with the first. I want to be healthy, I want to make good, life long habits. Maybe get a few more scratches and bruises before, old age and adult body catch up with me.

Day Three in Cali

For some reason, I woke up this morning around 7 AM. I might be able to blame it on the heat again, this condo has no AC. I repeat, no AC. I guess that is a normal thing if you are living at the beach. Instantly I rolled over and began reading my book... until I finished the entire thing. It was a good easy read that let me lose myself in the story, and now I am sad its over.

We all were like snails this morning, slow movers. After that was all said and done though, my mom, franki, her friend Desi and I found ourselves at Legoland. I've never been there before, but my sister Shawna got us free tickets so why not? The two hours we were there were fun, again not much to do, but I can see the appeal to a 4 year old. If those two amusement parks I had gone to weren't free, I would never pay to go to them. I would much rather spend my money at Disneyland, which is awesome all the time.

After some food and a nap, we made our way to the beach. Always awesome, and these sunsets have not been a let down. My emotions have crept on me though. I don't want to go back to Utah, but at the same time I do. I need to get back to regular life and, deal with/cope whatever path I am about to be on.

Day TWO in Cali

So I skipped day one, but lets just say it was full of a dental appointment, hair appointment, flash flood, etc.

And here I am at the end of day two. It's been sort of rough, I have let my emotions get the best of me. I woke up with a horrible headache, probably because I slept too long. Got dressed and headed the the Wild Animal Park here in San Diego with my family. I stepped outside and I was instantly dripping sweat. The weather was near a 100 and extremely humid.

I feel like you can only spend so much time there. It's not like you get too much interaction with the animals. So with the mixture of my mood and when boredom set in we left and made it to the beach. It was seriously beautiful, and we were at a perfect spot. I never wanted to leave, but everyone was hungry and so we made our way to this hole in the wall mexican restaurant. I miss those things.

It was still early enough in the day that I didn't want to go sit back at the condo. I had my dad drop me off by the pier where I planned to lay, read and ponder. My mom wanted to come so she napped next to me. I cant say enough how nice it was. It reminds of how much I love this earth and the amazing things that we have been given here. Just being outside and enjoying them brings me such happiness and peace. It was everything that I have been needing.

Upon my return to our place, I instantly grabbed the book I had bought at the airport and continued reading. I forgot how it feels to absolutely lose yourself in a book. It's the best when you want to escape the emotions you are trying to forget about.

Heres to hoping tomorrow is a great day and I wont let those things affect me.

Highland Park

In my new place, which is 3x the size of my last. In my own bedroom which is larger than my bedroom at my parents. Do I need this much space? Life, where are you taking me.

my brother.

I am feeling extra sensitive right now. I have known that my little brother was being sent to South Korea by the marine core, but now it is actually tomorrow. I probably should be more up to date on the current events of the world, but what I do know is that North Korea isn't happy and that can mean trouble for a lot of people. Which in turn, puts my brother in an unsafe area.

Sometimes he posts tons of selfies of himself and his body and I find happiness in making fun of that, but I love him. He has this, "tough guy" exterior and as annoying as it is sometimes, he always is looking out for his sisters. He cares deeply about the people around him and is proud to be serving our country. I admire his dedication.

As I kneeled down in prayer tonight, I felt the strongest spirit. I know that Heavenly Father will be watching over him and I am so grateful for that. I have been so blessed by my family and the love that we have for one another.

Can I just say that I had an awesome day? But more on that later...

Not to get all sappy and what not, but this really has been weighing on my mind! So here's the story... This past week I flew to California, it was awesome. I took the lonely ride on the airport tram to get back to my car. While on said tram, there was a couple sitting right across from me with a newborn child in the stroller. They were so flippin cute, the couple looked like they were in their early 30's. To be honest, they weren't the most physically attractive couple I ever have seen, but they loved each other. It just radiated from them. You could tell the husband adored his wife and child, they sat there and laughed and smiled with each other. In a non over the top, non creepy way. 

I want that. I can't wait to have that. For the most part, I could care less what my future spouse physically looks like. I want someone who will make me laugh, and just love me and out future family. I feel like relationships focus so much on the outward appearance. It should be completely inward. I am excited for the day when I meet someone whose soul is the completion of mine. I trust in Heavenly Father and his timing, I know that this will happen for me when the timing is right. 

Today was wonderful, that is all. 

Breathe In, Breath Out.

Taking a trip home can be like transporting to another world. I live in a place, where none of my family resides and it’s great. My roommates and friends in the ward are my family when I am away from home, and I have no complaints. I am allowed to be independent and do as I please. However, it is like a breath of fresh air to visit home every once in awhile.

This past week, I was able to take a couple days out of my schedule; more like cut a chunk out of my next paycheck, and fly back to California. It’s like recharging my batteries. It’s a place that is so familiar and the people you are surrounded with have grown up with you. There are no judgments passed inside my family’s home and I can just be myself 100%.

I feel rejuvenated and have a fresher more clear perspective on who I am and what I need to do. It’s nice. I am ready to go back to Utah, just maybe not work haha. This trip reminded me of how truly blessed I am, and I don’t think anyone can get enough reminders of that. Heavenly Father has given us this life, filled with trials and moments of joy. We are here to learn, and for that, I am appreciative.