I'm coming home...

Coming home, tell the world that I'm coming home...
(Lately, I will hear a line of a song come up in normal conversation and then I break into song)

But really! I am coming home tomorrow. My real home, my families home in the heart of MoVal. Oh how I miss that brown dry town, occasionally.  I mainly just miss my family and the sense of security I have there.

However, there is an event. My brother is graduating from the marines boot camp in San Diego! I can't even express enough how proud I am of him. December was the last time that I saw him so this should be a great weekend well spent. Oceanside here I come, my mom is already planning a family bon fire for us on friday night haha. She is a great mom, always trying to make us happy.

All that I need to do is finish packing (gay), stop by work to pick up something before I leave and drive my little Nissan Xterra to that Salt Lake City airport. Then after about an hour and a half spent in the air I will arrive in Long Beach. Jetblue, I love you. Until then, farewell!

Under the Sun

The title of my blog means so much to me, and I was reminded of it this past week. You sit and try and think of some clever title, but really mine sums up what I love. I had two moments this week 'under the sun' that were the epitome of a perfect feeling to me.

The first running the 5k race through downtown Salt Lake while it was sunny and raining, I am pretty sure on that blog post I mentioned, in that moment things felt perfect.

The second moment was last night. Our friend Ryan oh so graciously took us out on his boat to Utah Lake. Just sitting there, staring out at the most beautiful sunset was another perfect moment for me. You just try to soak in natures beauty, and I am not trying to sound all mushy. Those outdoor moments are me. They are everything that I live for. The outdoor activities are what brings happiness to my whole being.

Other than that, I was attacked by a swarm of mosquitos (along with everyone else...), and am drowning myself in bath salts and cortizone cream. Today we might float the Provo River with some friends and I think I am going to insist on a stop to the store for bug spray. My body is not food for these insects!

inner blogger

I feel like my inner blogger is coming out. I am not sure if this is a good or bad thing, seeing as I am not  that witty and creative of a writer. But I will continue on in my "wanna be" blogger fashion.

Today I am feeling down. Well, down and up. Up in the fact that I am excited for the future even though I have no idea what is actually in store for me. Down because I feel like moving here right away and dating someone was not the most smart decision I could have made. In the end, it obviously didn't work out and now that I am back to single life, I find it harder and harder to make friends. I see groups of friends already formed, and I am kind of discounted if it has in any way a relation to do with my ex. For me, the situations aren't awkward. I am an adult, I don't talk bad about past people I have dated. I guess being mature in this situation isn't so easy for some people. 

Well what shall I do? I guess continue on in the journey, I know that things will work out and I will be right back on that road to happiness again soon. 

Okay guys

I had an epiphany last night. I haven't checked if I am using that word in the right context, but anyway... I was laying in bed wasting away some time before I actually got sleepy. Thoughts were jumbled in my head, ranging from what I would do tomorrow, to what is in store for me this next year. Not to jump the gun, but I think I realized it. It definitely has to do with continuing my education, but where oh where would this take place? I had really good vibes when I thought about a certain school so I am going to pursue it and see what happens. I am more than excited about this and I am hoping it works out the way that I feel it will. Bon voyage Provo? Haha tune in and see.

It's a quarter after 6am

Actually it isn't anymore, but it was the time me and Alise left Provo this morning to head to Salt Lake. That city excites me, all the different things to do that I don't even know about yet. At the same time I think it somewhat appeals to me because it IS a city and it is not as dirty as LA.  Nonetheless, late last night we decided we were going to jump in on the 5k Pioneer Day (Utah state holiday) run that started at the Energy Solutions Arena (where the Utah Jazz play).

To my surprise, we both got up and made it there just in time for the race to start. Running through streets that are so unfamiliar, but at the same time so full of interesting sights. I couldn't help but laugh like a little school girl and smile while running with this large group of people that varied in ages. The sun was shining through the clouds and the temperature was perfect. At first I thought someone had spit on me, but quickly realized that it had started raining. In that moment, I felt happier than I have been in a long time. There is something about being outside and running in the rain that went deeper then what my body was physically doing.

Today is Pioneer Day, a Utah state holiday. My first instincts were to be like, "yes! an unexpected paid day off." And don't get me wrong, I still feel that way, but it is more than that. I know of few pioneer stories, but I know what it is like to do something hard when you don't know what the outcome will be. To make a move alone and trust that you are making the right decision.

Things are changing in my life again and I am excited and scared at the same time :)

Can you paint with all the colors of the wind...

Yes, we are watching Pocahontas on a saturday night and I have no problem with that. This movie makes me want to start a Disney movie marathon! Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, Lion King, etc... What could be better?

Today my dad posted a picture of my brother in his marines uniform. For anyone that doesn't know, I moved here in January and haven't seen him since. He left earlier then we thought for bootcamp and I wasn't able to make it home in time. I am SO proud of him! I think about all of the things he has probably been put through and they tug at my heart strings. My little brother who grew up in a house full of girls, the little boy who was constantly picked on by his older sisters. In less than two weeks time, we get to see him graduate!

There is nothing like family and I have realized that more and more as I have gotten older and moved to a different state. Man I love them :)

17 year old self

For some reason last night a certain thought popped into my head. If I could tell my 17 year old self advice for the future and things to come, what would it be?

If I could tell my 17 year old self...

I would say not to buy a car.
I would say it is okay to be alone.
I would say it is not okay to drink.
I would say to strive to live a righteous and virtuous life.
I would say focus on your goals.
I would say be happy and don't sweat the small stuff.
I would say work hard.

But more than that I would have never in a million years guessed where I would be today. I wouldn't know that I would turn my life completely towards Christ and that that would be the best decision I could ever make for my self. I would not have guessed that the first time I moved out of my parents house that it would be to another state. I wish I could have told myself to focus on things that matter like faith and family and education. I wouldn't know that I would get engaged and break it off. And although those tough times and mistakes have happened, I know that they have taught me extremely valuable lessons. Lessons that I would have never gotten any other way.