Sitting in my apartment, at my table, surrounded by index cards, thinking about how blessed and grateful I truly am! Ever since I made the decision to join the church, my life has only gone in a positive direction. I have grown as a person for the better. I constantly I am considering ways that will not only improve myself, but improve others around me. I want to be the best me that I can be. I continually pray for guidance, and that is continually what I get.

Sometimes I consider how great everything is going for me and I am scared it is going to come to a screeching halt. Life is really that great right now. I have been blessed to be able to financially support myself, and live on my own in an entirely different state with no family around. My roommates have become my family. I have had some setbacks that allowed me to lean closer to my Heavenly Father and trust in Him instead of stressing out, and what did you know, something great and new came along to help me with them. I have had people put in my life here that put a smile on my face everyday and show me love. I have met a person who makes me want to be great for them and always strive to make them happy.

God is good. Life is good. I wish this knowledge for everyone.

The sense of smell

Is it weird that I love the, "smell" of things? I couldn't imagine my life without that sense. Actually, I couldn't imagine my life missing any of my senses but that is besides that point. Certain holidays have certain smells. As you walk into a house during christmas time, you take in that pine tree and cinnamon candle. You take a walk to the beach and breathe in the salty ocean and refreshing air. The sense of smell isn't just in places, it can be the food that your roommate cooks, luring you into the kitchen when you aren't even hungry. It can be the smell of a boy you like and the shirt that he left behind.

My point is, I love our ability to smell.

I have been here a month!

Life is good, oh so good. This week I feel like I have done a lot of reflecting on the past year. Who I was, who I am now, and who I want to become. I am so happy and blessed, the satisfaction I feel in my life right now is great. Everyday I wake up and I am excited for what it holds and the new adventures it brings! I am thankful for the apartment of people I live in, who constantly keep me laughing. I can't recall a single day I have been here, that hasn't caused me to cry and have a stomach cramp because of something funny somebody said.

Deciding to move away from home and to Provo has been the best decision I could have made for myself. To take myself out of an unhealthy surrounding and try to grow as a person somewhere completely different. I have grown and strengthened my relationship with God more than I can imagine. It gets stronger and stronger everyday and I am in awe of it. I continually pray that my family and friends can feel that love that our Heavenly Father has for us, and the realization of the church. Through all of it I have become a better and happier person. I can only pray and wish these things for everyone, and especially the people that I hold dear.

In this past month that I have been here, I have been able to experience things I had not done before and meet people that have made me feel at home. I have been able to be hired at a job that is run by good people. Yes, I miss my family at home and I insanely crazily miss Lily, but there is no doubt about this choice I have made. This blog is a little bit repetitive, but these things are all that I can think about.

mansion cabin in Park City with heated floors

paint war in SLC

Matt Costa concert at BYU

my drive home from work

walking around Sundance

BYU basketball game