Sometimes you have no idea what is going on in your heart. I was pretty sure that I was in tune with my feelings, but then out of nowhere I am lost. Jokes on me! Haha. Guess the only solution to this problem is waiting it out, time is everything.

Just finished playing four-square, actually nine-square (a large group of people stretched that one out)! Bringing back to my childhood, I like it.

I feel like I am all over the place today, not just in this blog post. My brain, my heart, my health. Definitely not making any sense. Saw this today and loved it...

Today was a day of happiness! I felt incredibly grateful for the vacation I had this past weekend and the friends that surrounded me. I thought I would dread the work day ahead of me when I stepped outside this morning and it was cold enough for me to turn on the heater in my car. Luckily, I have amazing co-workers and we all keep each other sane and laughing... most of the time haha. Even though I was lazy, it felt great to run at the gym. Hopefully get rid of all that junk food I ate throughout the weekend, no regrets on that, it was oh so good. Skyped with my best friend from home Erin, for a good hour. Definitely put a smile on my face. Took my laptop in the bathroom with me while I showered. It was a perfect night for a good sing-a-long. Prayed, read my scriptures and got exactly what I needed out of them. I am blessed more than I will ever be able to realize. Goodnight y'all.

drumroll please...

At church on Sunday, I was called to be Relief Society 1st councilor, woo! I can seriously testify that Heavenly Father knows each and every one of us, and he knows our wants and needs. I feel like this was such a blessing. I love Heavenly Father, I love the gospel and the church, I love everything that has to do with the atonement, holy ghost and its guidance, etc. But I still struggle. I felt like I was falling into a place where I was questioning directions in my life and purpose. I feel like this calling was the purpose I was looking for and after being baptized only a little over a year ago, I am ecstatic to learn even more. It's a lot, but I know it will be worth it and rewarding. There is no greater love than charity!

In other news, I hiked Bridal Veil falls with Katelyn on saturday. I feel like it was just a check off the list of things that you are required to do at least once if you live in Provo. The leaves on all the trees are changing, and there are amazing fall colors scattered across the mountains. Fall = favorite season of the year and I havent experience a Utah fall. I have high expectations, beautiful color on trees and scenery better not let me down! haha.

surviving cold showers

So I lagged on getting the gas bill transferred into my name, which resulted in no warm water. Figuring it would get turned on immediately the next day I rationalized that I would be able to live without a shower for 24 hours. I was wrong.

I had a long day at work and all I wanted was that super clean feeling. Mustering up the courage, I walked into my apartment and straight into the bathroom to shower. Quickly I turned on the water, and stepped into the shower at the far end of the tub. It went downhill fast. My instinct was to ditch the shower and live forever dirty, okay for another day. I decided to stick my leg into the stream of water, cold shock! I tried to hop to the other end of the bath so the water would flow over my head. It was an unusual dance I had with that water. As soon as I got my hair wet it was all over, freezing water flowed all over me and at that point there was no turning back!

Once it was all over, I vowed I would never do that again. And I couldn't help but laugh.

perfect day

As failed as my attempt was to get married this year, I still have faith that there is that someone I will one day meet. That one day we will grow old together and always make each other laugh. Hopeless romantic party of 1 right here!

So in other words, today I found my wedding day song. Even though I am not in engaged, not in a relationship and don't even want to be right now haha. One day though... drumroll please... this song is perfect. Also, I love this video, it makes me tear up.

http://vimeo.com/44417251

Seriously though, watch it and you will fall in love. I couldn't figure out how to get this video posted on my page since it is through vimeo. Trust me, watch it :)

the poor life

The poor life... okay, I know there are people that are a lot worse off than me haha. However, I just put lemon pepper on my scrambled eggs because I don't have salt. Drank water out of the one cup (coffee cup) I have, that was given to me for free for signing up with Wells Fargo (which I cancelled my account). It is just hilarious to me right now lol. Hey, maybe I will lose some weight! Always look on the bright side of things :)

The new Taylor Swift song, love love love. It isn't anything country, but she gets me every single time! So catchy. So here I am, sitting on my couch, alone on a friday night, watching access hollywood. Life is good.

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I am in love with my bed! Well not that much, but let's just say that my bed is a lot more comfy than my previous. However, it is still a twin. It feels great to walk into a room that has only your stuff in it. Both side of the walls are mine. Those clothes on the ground? All mine.

I am excited for this new adventure, with new roommates, with new people in the ward. I am ready to make new relationships with people I haven't met yet. All day I have been thinking about the friendships I have formed while I've been here, and some are good! But I want them to be better. I have been picturing a tree with its roots being a symbol as to how deep my relationships are. I am sad to say that none go too deep. Thing to work on number one.