remember when you were little and you used to wish upon these things? Pick these weeds from random lawns and blow as hard as you could to knock off all their fuzzy things. I can't quite remember what my wishes were then, but as a 23 year old adult who just picked and wished, my wish was quite intense. If only wishes on weeds would come true...

random saying in a song i liked... "...the kisses got sweeter, and the feelings got stronger..."

Today while cleaning out bins that sit in my closet, I came across mounds of schoolwork from these past years in college. First, there was a notebook of chemistry notes and assignments. I sure do miss chemistry as bizarre as that sounds. I just felt like my brain was challenged and that I was constantly learning. The past year of dental assisting school sure put a damper on my learning capabilities, it was just loads of information with no real thought. The next folder I came across was an array of miscellaneous work, essays I found on different religions I had, "studied" or more realistically googled random things to BS my way through my World Religions class. Sure enough, an essay written on the LDS faith was written. It was so bland and computerized. These were just words, that people had written online with no faith in them. It as just a reminder of how important the missionaries are. People whose sole purposes are to teach and explain. Explain to people of all ages with open hearts and open minds.

Something I have been struggling with lately is my location and money. As much as I love my 8-5 job, it is only monday-wednesday. I need a means of income that will allow me to relocate in the future. Relocate to a place where I can grow as a person, as an adult and in faith. I know that it is just a waiting game and I am being impatient because my application for school in winter will eventually go through. Im just struggling as I watch other people living what I want in life right now. Im hoping that I will be able to find random work to help keep me afloat and busy on thursday and fridays. I feel as if God is teaching me a specific and important lesson on patience and selflessness. I am always thinking about me me me, but I need to think about what is best for the people I care about as well. And I am also sitting here impatiently waiting on news from school and impatiently waiting on the end of the year to come so that I can move.

This past sunday, yesterday, I went to the Redlands singles ward. Not really my type, I felt kind of awkward there. It's hard to even think of dating because my mind wanders to somebody else. Besides all of those points, we sang hymn number 124 and I really enjoyed it, so here it is sang by David Archuletta....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gAQOgzKgxXM