life whispers, listen closely

It's safe to say, I had to shed a few tears before the month of October. What is a month that doesn't include  a bit of those moistened droplets falling from the corners of your eyes. The hardest thing I will ever have to do up until now, will be to give my precious dog Lily to a different family. I have had a good cry about it today, since my dads stance will not be shaken. It pains me to even think about it. Okay, I am done thinking about it for now.

This leads me to visiting teaching. October was the first month that I ever have gone. Working out which days and times works for both me and my visiting teaching partner, along with those we are supposed to visit proved tough. Schedules always conflicted, but once we made it work it was great. I enjoyed spending time with these people and just listening and sharing thoughts. It always feel nice to be needed for something and it also allows me to open my mind. To the fact that people have hardships, and things that may be hard in my life, are very minimal to what another person may be or have gone through. I am grateful for this life that I have, for this health that I am in.

So, to me it looks as if I will be heading to BYU-I for spring semester. There is nothing set in stone, but the more I consider the option, the smarter the choice it seems to be. In order to progress, I need to attend a University and I can't just sit around and wait just because I don't want to live in a certain place. A place can be temporary. If I am going to be giving up my best friend, who would never leave my side and is always happy to see me, it better be for a darn good reason and I better accomplish something :(

This past week, I haven't able to control my thoughts. As hard as I try, my thoughts always wander back to something I am trying so hard to suppress. It is just difficult, when your heart doesn't agree with your brain.

On repeat, over and over and over, will be seeing them next saturday, in 6 days! I bought two tickets, and I am not sure who I am going with yet, haha oh well I will figure it out.

listen, enjoy and let your mind melt into this beautiful song.

"Hold my breath as you're moving in,
taste your lips and feel your skin."