a fork in the road

I've come to a fork in my road. Obviously, there are decisions to be made daily... what I am going to eat for breakfast, what time I should go to the gym, etc. But this is bigger than that, where do I need to be the next couple years of my life?

I can't get over the fact that my next birthday is 25. I use to think that that was so old, but never really thought of exactly where I would be or what I would be doing. Joining the church wasn't something that ever fit into my plans either. I am happy with where I am, but where do I go from here?

I need to work on Heavenly Fathers timetable. I heard this time and again in this recent conference. Henry B. Eyring said, "God is not unable to see us or communicate with us, but we may be unwilling to listen or submit to his will, and his time." No truer words have been spoken. I need to focus on my faith, and doing all that I can to make Him proud.

As I lay here on my couch, in my pajamas, listening to the most beautiful song I have heard in awhile (will list at the bottom of this post), I cant help but think of the last day that I saw Jake. He's been back on his mission for almost a year now, which is crazy to me that time has flown by that quickly. But I remember being sai because when he left we were 23 and when he gets back we will be 25. Thats pretty obvious, but its the fact that our lives will have changed in so many ways. I could have been married and had kids within that time period. Obviously, that isn't happening haha, but that strong friendship that we had was put to a halt and we both have been growing separately in different ways.

I am excited for the future even though I don't know what it holds. I am excited to work on myself and having faith in Heavenly Fathers timing for things. I promise to try and be more optimistic and to serve others more.

Bon Iver - Holocene

Becky, Desi and I at the football game