on the news

As I sit here cuddled up in my blanket that I have had since the age of 2, I realize that I am getting old. I am enjoying the news, channel 7 news to be exact! I feel that I need to be more educated. The other day I found myself googling how to learn the location of the states. I live here in the US and I am not proud to say I don't know where anything geography is! After finding a website that allowed me to play a game where I would drag that states to their proper spots, I feel a lot more confident in my state locating abilities haha. However, it took me a whole hour.

While my mind was wandering at work yesterday, I started thinking of things that make me, "me." The fact that I find easy excitement in the simplest things. I enjoy socks, I do not enjoy finding matching pairs. 90% of the time I am wearing socks, they do not match. The other 10% is when they are most likely holiday socks, and those of course match. Because I just have to buy socks that are a symbol of the season I am in. I enjoy mail. When I am sending out letters at work, I have to make sure that the stamp is perfectly straight with the corner, a couple millimeters away from the edge. Also, they need to be cute stamps, like the ones I put on our statement envelopes are Disney ones that include Up, Toy Story, Wall-E, etc.

I tend to laugh at my own jokes and I find nothing wrong with that. As long as I am having a good time, shoot. I love when I can find a CD where every song is enjoyable. During Christmas time, I pull out my must have reindeer antler ears and big red nose for my car and sport that around town. On my drive to work in the mornings I give myself a private concert. I am pleased with the fact that I am a jeans and t-shirt kind of person and occasionally enjoy dressing up. I will try anything outdoorsy as long as it doesn't involve stomach jumpy feelings or bees. Man, I hate bees.

Today, I received something from RCC in the mail. Let me just tell you that I have had my Associates Degree for over a year technically, but the certificate finally came. One small degree down, Bachelors here I come!

sweet sweet november

Aw, sweet sweet november, you have arrived. As another month from this year comes to a close and a new one begins, I can't help but think back to a year prior. I can recall memories of exactly what kind of lifestyle I was living at the time. If you would tell my old self that in a year you would be here, a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, planning on moving to Utah and attending an LDS school, etc, I would have not believed me for one second. This year has been good to me, more than I could have ever imagined. I have grown in so many ways, taking every good and bad experience and turning them into something of use.

November: Happiness in myself, my decisions, my choices, I cant control people, but I can control myself

As I look forward to the start of this month, I somehow feel rejuvenated. Looking at these past months makes me happy, even through the 'downs'. I have strength within myself, that comes from our heavenly father. I am never alone and I know that he has a plan. As of today, I can say that with a solid foundation. 

This saturday I am going to see Parachute in concert! I somehow managed to make this a sister event and it makes it all that much better, bonding time. This will be Fran's first concert ever and I have no doubts she will not love it. I have been obsessively listening to the band over and over, and have managed to develop a crush on the lead singer. Music melts into my soul, scriptures melt into my soul, what a coincidence. Sweet sweet November.

<3 Will Anderson

life whispers, listen closely

It's safe to say, I had to shed a few tears before the month of October. What is a month that doesn't include  a bit of those moistened droplets falling from the corners of your eyes. The hardest thing I will ever have to do up until now, will be to give my precious dog Lily to a different family. I have had a good cry about it today, since my dads stance will not be shaken. It pains me to even think about it. Okay, I am done thinking about it for now.

This leads me to visiting teaching. October was the first month that I ever have gone. Working out which days and times works for both me and my visiting teaching partner, along with those we are supposed to visit proved tough. Schedules always conflicted, but once we made it work it was great. I enjoyed spending time with these people and just listening and sharing thoughts. It always feel nice to be needed for something and it also allows me to open my mind. To the fact that people have hardships, and things that may be hard in my life, are very minimal to what another person may be or have gone through. I am grateful for this life that I have, for this health that I am in.

So, to me it looks as if I will be heading to BYU-I for spring semester. There is nothing set in stone, but the more I consider the option, the smarter the choice it seems to be. In order to progress, I need to attend a University and I can't just sit around and wait just because I don't want to live in a certain place. A place can be temporary. If I am going to be giving up my best friend, who would never leave my side and is always happy to see me, it better be for a darn good reason and I better accomplish something :(

This past week, I haven't able to control my thoughts. As hard as I try, my thoughts always wander back to something I am trying so hard to suppress. It is just difficult, when your heart doesn't agree with your brain.

On repeat, over and over and over, will be seeing them next saturday, in 6 days! I bought two tickets, and I am not sure who I am going with yet, haha oh well I will figure it out.

listen, enjoy and let your mind melt into this beautiful song.

"Hold my breath as you're moving in,
taste your lips and feel your skin."

REpeating

The past few days have been a lazy blur. Wednesday I meant to go to the gym, but didn't. Thursday, did a couple errands and went running with Haley, but for the most part took a couple naps and was successfully unproductive. Friday, spent some time at the Sprunts where I brought Lily and the kids were extremely eager to walk her around the neighborhood so we did and took turns. It was pretty cute, but by the time I got home I proceeded with my habit of hanging out in my room laying in my bed, which then leads to more sleep.

While surfing the web last night, after I sat at home alone watching Dateline NBC (my favorite friday night show when I don't go out), I started to come across different crafts. My love for books and reading is no secret, if you take me into a bookstore, I will be happy for hours wandering by myself flipping through pages and pages. Ever since I was little, I have always wanted to hollow out a book. To have my own hiding space for who knows what, in the middle of a bookcase. So that is exactly what I am going to be doing today, attempting to hollow out a book! We will just call this saturday, craftday. I also came across this cool bracelet pattern, so I might take a trip to Joann's or Michaels so that I can partake in making bracelets haha. What I ideally would enjoy doing today would be taking a trip outdoors, maybe the mountains or the beach. Nooobody to go with though.

I feel as if I am falling into a past daze of things I enjoy. I started re-reading the first Twilight, which I am even as excited about the story as I was the first time I read it years ago. I have been yearning for a good love story, and this is gauranteed. There is so much more in books, details that make everything perfect, than in the movies. As I sit away and type this blog post, I am re-watching Harry Potter 7 part 1. My love for Harry, Ron and Hermione will never fade I don't think.

And the the ultimate questions that have been nagging at my brain this week. What am I going to do with Lily when I leave? What is the best possible place, situation and person for her? and even worse, What do you buy your ex-boyfriend for his birthday? Nothing? Only time will tell the choice I will be forced to make haha.

ba da bing!

a friend posted this earlier and i took a liking to it, it is just up front and straight to the point.

Also, I figured I didn't have much to talk about so I decided to upload a couple pictures I have taken recently. This is my daily life and things I have come across in the last day.

my morning commute.

drew woody during institute.

my pumpkin sleeping on me last night.

my neighbors skeleton.

goodbye sun

my loveable buttercup.

The soothing sound of rain, fresh breeze of cool air, warmth of a sweater and hot chocolate in my hand creates a feeling I can not explain. Thank you Moreno Valley for providing a day of weather I am happy to approve of! Besides the fact that I am one of those losers that enjoy sitting in their car on their lunch breaks alone, today was nice and relaxing, twilight book in hand. Yes, I read twilight. Yes, I am rereading it. I am in dire need of a good love story, and it seems that I have been recently unable to find an amazing one. I love reading and if a book doesn't get a firm grasp on me from the start its just falls by the waste side of some corner in my room until I come across it again and give it another chance. Wow, I just realized the previous sentence was a long one.

So one more day of work this week! Woooo hoooo, not that I work a lot, but last week on my days off they were just BUSY. I was able to go running wednesday-saturday, go to knotts scary farm for free, go to downtown disney, saturday night stake conference, the Ronald Reagan library and back to work again monday.

Tonights agenda, institute! I will keep updating this week :)

stake conference saturday night

Lately, I have been facing a slight struggle with attending church activities. Some days I just feel a bit dragged down after work and choose sleep and laziness over institute, or going to all 3 hours on sunday. Not that it's an excuse, but being the only member in my family takes a toll. This past week I had my wisdom teeth removed so it gave me even more of an excuse to skip out on things. Nonetheless, it is now a week later and I was able to attend the saturday night session of our stake conference. I loved it.

Every talk given, spoke straight to my heart and I felt the impact of each deep inside of me. You could feel the spirit stronger than I remember having felt it lately. I am grateful to know what that feeling is. It is an emotion packed sensation that fills you. It brings grown men to tears. This conference reaffirmed my already existing knowledge that this church is true. That this is what is right, no questions.

The first talk was given by President Sprunt (Sams dad). It's always interesting hearing stories from someone you personally know, they hit you with a greater impact than most others. He touched on the fact that we can't afford to just, "go through the motions," in these latter days. I need to put the commitment into visiting teaching (which I have never done), always attending church and every institute, paying tithing, etc. That every calling is of importance. That there is no such thing as an insignificant calling or one that goes unnoticed. Which brings me back to all the things people said or did without realizing it, as I was going through the baptism process. That helped strengthen me and my testimony. He also spoke of wind. That, at one point, we are all somebody's wind. Picking someone up in a way that we might not even realize or notice.

When Kelsey and Tanner gave their talk it was refreshing. It was refreshing coming from people around my age, having such a strong involvement in the church. I was reminded that decisions now affect not only this life, but our eternal life. That the Lord is there waiting, but we need to act. We need to put the effort and come to him. Not only can other peoples faith grow as they begin to learn of the church, but you seeing that growth can strengthen your own. Faith is a verb, an action word. Faith can not be physically seen. Our Heavenly Father will always provide and always be our light in the darkness. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. My faith has made me whole. It has given me as a person, a full heart.

..."My new life started the day I was baptized." I can relate to this. I have been given a second chance to live life the way it is supposed to be. Living life through the light of Christ. I am technically 4 months old, still stumbling and learning, taking my first steps. Those stumbles give me the chance to prove my worthiness and a chance to prove my faith. We have the opportunity to speak to our father at any time of the day, anywhere that we are. I constantly find myself saying a 5 second prayer of gratitude for random things that I realize as I go throughout my day. I say a prayer of thanks after arriving somewhere, I say a prayer of thanks after I see a patient with medical disabilities and then follow it with a prayer for them. We have this freedom of prayer that should be taken advantage of as much as possible. Our faith can be lost in being passive and I am so grateful for the gospel ending my spiritual starvation, as said by a recent canyon springs ward convert.

Before this, "new life" I did not know what was going to happen in my life. I still do not know what is going to happen in my life. But, I am not scared. I know that I am not alone and one day I will return to my heavenly father. One day I will have eternal life with my future spouse and children. And I pray everyday that the seed of Christ that I know is within each of my family members will grow, and we can all be together forever. I have the agency to choose the right.