I don't know if it is a good or bad thing to write when you are emotional, but that is my current state. Tears streaming down my face, the little bit of eyeliner I have on, smudged.
I just said bye to Jake. I am not sure how, but somewhere along this year he has become my best friend. He pretty much knows everything about me, how to make me laugh and right now, how to make me cry by leaving. What he is doing is right though, serving a mission. I'm just a little bit heartbroken that this person that I have become so close with, and really the only person that I actually talk to anymore is going to be gone from my life. I wont be able to just text him when something random happens in my day, or drive over to his house whenever I feel like it, even though walking would save gas since it is really only about 10 houses away. Who is going to watch music videos with me into the late hours of the morning?
I am so proud of him, but I am sad for me. I thought that when I joined the church, I wouldn't have this problem because all my friends all served their missions. I honestly would have been a wreck if I knew the significance of a mission, or were as close as I am with Jake, when other friends left for theirs.
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