uncertainty

The only thing I am certain of is that I am going through some changes. Change equals growth though, right? My mind is running in a thousand different directions unsure of what to make of certain things. In short, I am starting to get that alone feeling even though I am surrounded by lots of friends and people. I have no idea what I would do if I wasn't going to be moving. To be stuck in this town, in this rut of not moving forward, I swear it would slowly kill me. I am constantly looking back on the decisions I have made in this past year, and I can only imagine what next year will hold for me. Surprises, endless surprises. Where will I be in a year from now? Well I can guarantee that I will be 24. Will I be in Utah, Idaho, back in California? Where will I be working? Will I have a boyfriend, fiance, husband? It is hard and exciting to look at the endless opportunities for the future, but when you know it is going to take a lot of courage, change and independence to do these things it is kind of scary. The unknown is a bit scary. I need to learn to rely on myself.  30-35ish days until I move out, I still haven't picked a definite date. To think that this year was a complete change and journey, I can only imagine what next year brings.

"Two roads diverged in a wood,

and I ---

I took the one less traveled by, 

and that has made all the difference."

-Robert Frost